My sense of self is a linear continuum that extends from
deep within myself, up through my being and outside myself to my physical body
and social environment and further extending out to encompass geography as well
as history because it all is dynamic with a time dimension.
The two directions of this line extend opposite to each
other from the central point that is the unity of my total self, but nothing
that is not myself. Each presents a
one-sided image of the self, with the two sides being like the two sides of the
body or the brain, mirror images of each other, though each independent and not
identical in detail.
This line that transcends many orders of magnitude is not an
even progression. Like many physical
phenomena, such as the banding of rocks round stars to form planets or the
quantum leaps of tiny particles, this dimension has Energy Levels that resonate
and form patterns and structures. These
are the various orders of magnitude at which Science finds evidence of a
unified structure, usually with random relevance to energy levels at remote
orders of magnitude.
Being a bi-directional dimension, perhaps it is better
called a bimension. So many phenomena
can approach zero from either direction, but find on close proximity, that when
unity is passed in a reducing direction, what might have appeared as a steep
decline suddenly levels off and reduces as a decreasing rate so it is
impossible to reach zero from either direction in a mathematically asymptotic balanced
infinitude.
These two selves are a mental construct, and the phenomenon
is probably valid for everyone. We have
an inner self and we have a public self.
Who we are as entities in the world, like the public persona of famous
people, is one self and our private lives, especially as lived in our heads,
perhaps in the dark, at night both awake and asleep is another. It might perhaps be observed that most people
are raised from childhood to bring these into unison and it is the education
system’s role to direct how they develop with age. When these two selves diverge, some forms of
mental illness can ensue. However, it is
wrong to suggest everyone with this split sense of self is mentally ill,
because it is almost certainly universal and normal and natural.
This is not to be confused with other linear measurements of
human activity, such as Political left and right, religiosity, optimism, wealth
or income.
Naum/Norm